It’s amazing, people would rather read about a “mean mom” than about gossip or getting real. That’s okay. I’ll keep writing.
At my Bible study the other day our small group had a conversation about seeking God’s will for our lives verses moving forward and asking God to bless our plans. Who doesn’t need that reminder?
One of the ladies shared that she had, had a miscarriage around the same time we did. She felt that she miscarried because she had not prayed about getting pregnant. As I recently experienced the same loss, I was outraged (contained outrage) by this pattern of thinking. What she was saying was, “God punished me for not consulting Him in the matter of having another child.” It kind of broke my heart that she believes that God would do that to her as a punishment. Losing a baby has to the harshest punishment God could mete out…in fact, it would be more like torture than punishment really and not anything close to discipline.
My outlook is God does not like death. He is LIFE. He is LOVE. He is AMAZING. We are living in a dispensation of grace. As a child of God, He disciplines us, however, punishment is reserved for the wicked. Death is a result of sin in the world. As a result of sin, we all experience death at times. God has a way of turning all of ashes into beauty. He has a way of turning tears into joy…He just does, He is that GOOD.
Those who sow in tears
Shall reap in joy.
He who continually goes forth weeping,
Bearing seed for sowing,
Shall doubtless come again with rejoicing,
Bringing his sheaves with him. –Psalm 126:5-6
Someone said God allows these things to happen so we will draw close to Him. I think God wants us to draw close to Him in the bad times and in the good times. I firmly believe that when our heart breaks, God’s heart breaks. His desire for us is to prosper us, to give us a future and a hope.
My other response is, God knit that child in my womb; in your womb. He made that child. Conception was His idea. It is a miracle. Every child conceived is a miracle. Why would God rip the miracle from your womb? What kind of God would we serve if that was His MO?
As I thought more about the conversation, my other though was… throughout scripture, God commanded His people to be fruitful and multiply. That means that babies are God’s will. It would be like asking God if it is His will for us to be loving. His Word says, “love one another”. We wouldn’t pray about whether or not to be loving. We may pray that God would help us to be loving. Just as I pray God will enable my body to carry a child or children to term one day (hopefully soon).
God’s love is Amazing. He has the best in mind for us….